I knew tonight was going to be horrible. I was dreading it all day. I was fine up until I called Multiple Support to confirm the dosage, but after that call the anxiety came back and lasted the rest of the day.
I bought some numbing cream from the pharmacy. I figured if I numbed the area first and I knew it wouldn't hurt that the anxiety would go away. Wow was I wrong! I put the cream on, left it for an hour as per the instructions and got my Rebismart out and ready to go. For a half hour I kept re-adjusting my position, moving my arm, all while my poor boyfriend was holding the Rebismart against my arm. Once again, my only dialogue was "Don't hit the button, don't hit the button!" Finally I decided that my bed would be a better place, so I crawled in, wrapped myself in comfy blankets and put my head on the pillow. I finally let him press the button. I barely felt the needle at all, but the medication stung!!! It stung for a good minute or so after it was done. 13 seconds is A LOT longer than 10 seconds - I don't care what anyone says.
At least it's done and I don't have to worry about it until Monday. At least I know the needle itself won't hurt at much with the cream. I think I can deal with the stinging. I'm hoping that I can suck it up enough to do it again!!
It's only been an hour. I feel relatively normal, but have a little bit of a headache. I can't decide if it is caused by the huge amount of anxiety I had all day, or the medication. Chances are it's a little bit of column A a little bit of Column B.
One thing I noticed was how obnoxious the beeping is on the machine. I think the beeping caused some of the anxiety once I was ready to do the injection. I shut the sound off before I put it away for the night, so next time I won't have the constant BEEEEP BEEEEEP BEEEEEP. Hopefully that helps too. I will keep trying new things to help with my comfort level!
That's all I have for now. This pin cushion is on her way to bed zzZZzzZZzz
~Sarah
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